Yesterday I was in a bit of a funk because of the whole blogging thing. When I say "I was in a bit of a funk" I mean it like the "Grand Canyon is a small hole in the ground". I won’t go into the details, now that’s a pleasant surprise! Suffice it to say that someone set the wheels in motion and the car rolled down a very steep hill while my equilibrium was still in the glove box.
I spent the better part of the day ruminating over whether it was even worth continuing with the whole blogging deal, as it seemed to be making me unhappy more often than happy of late. This may just be a natural phase of ‘blogging evolution’ (people who used to be regulars here have been disappearing lately, presumably due to other commitments but you never really know why, which is sad). Then there’s the whole ‘people ragging on me’ thing for not measuring up. But in the words of the great Popeye (my all time hero), "I yam what I yam".
So just when I was at my lowest ebb, help came from the most unlikely of sources, I got an email from Mindy, you know, the one I had the big fight with a while ago. Yes that’s her, the one with testicles on her ceiling with my name on them (you think I’m kidding, well maybe about my name, but not about the testicles, that part’s true). Anyway she gave me some words of encouragement that made all the bad thoughts go away. As did Melissa, (someone who has also taken me to task recently), and I thank them both for their kind words (but mostly Min because she had more words).
This is just a nice picture of Lion Island, it’s here for no reason other than it’s pleasant.
This is probably about as close as I get to one of those depression driven, ‘my world is black’ type posts that you see every now and then around the place. It’s not that I don’t suffer from depression, it’s just that I tend not to mention it. (After all , we are talking about a guy who one day just walked away from a six figure income and went to live by himself in the middle of nowhere because he just wasn’t happy.)
Ok, maybe I’ll do one more post.
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